How do I make something end that I want to end?
I don't know how to make the past end so that something new can begin... I need to make new things begin...
I thought that if I just continued and lived one day at a time that things would come to an end so that new things could begin. Don't get me wrong, I don't imagine that things are going to begin imediately after to old things end. I imagined some time of morning, but I am in limbo and don't know how to move on.
I have been looking around at places to escape to. I have been tossing up with the idea of moving back to my home state, of starting a new job and therefore a new but old life.
Is this running back towards something that I ran away from? I don't know. I want something new I want to discard the old. This is not ignoring the past as my past contributes to who I am. This is just so that I can place the past in the past.
I want to move on from all the things that hold me back to become all that I hope that I am meant to be.