So, it has been a long time between posts. In that time, I have had my birthday, celebrated Christmas and seen in the new year.
Sometimes things change and sometimes they don't.
This Christmas I spent with friends and family. There was a large amount of laughter and love. There was teasing and tormenting. There was way too much food. I really enjoyed the time that I spent with the friends and family that I live thousands of kilometres from.
This new year I thought of all the things that have happened in the last 12 months. I've thought of the hurts that have healed and the hurts that have not. I wonder about the wounds that become scars. I think of all the scars that make up me and my past. Some I remember fondly, some I remember with pain. I think of all th things that I want and the fact that some of them will not come true in the next 12 months. I think of the ones that will become true and all the things that this means for me. I think of my family and the wonderful joys that will come. I worry about the sorrow that may also come. Each time I go home, I dread that it will be the last time I go home and chat with my Nana. I dread that my next trip home will be to bury her. I am not ready to say goodbye to any more of my history. It will happen but I am not going to prepare for it.
I have a lot of dreams that I hope will come true this year. Some things are within my control. These are the things that I will take action on.
I don't do resolutions, because I always disappoint myself. We'll see if I am a stronger person this year. For all the things that I am and to all the things that I will be, I give thanks that I have seen 2007 in in health.
To good times, to good friends, to new adventures and old memories. May they all be balanced this year - for both you and me...