Okay, I am interstate on business and am blogging from a $1 per 10 min internet machine in the laudry mat. Oh, the glamour.
Just thought that I would say hi.
Some stuff, different location... one advantage is clean sheets and towels every day.
Take care.
Sunday Night Madness
I worked today and achieved a lot... Yeah for me.
I come home and find a flat mate looking for a little bit of fun. So to match the sailors hat that he is wearing I wear a shiny silver scarf and a big pink flower for that tasteful touch of glam...
I love Sunday Night Madness
I come home and find a flat mate looking for a little bit of fun. So to match the sailors hat that he is wearing I wear a shiny silver scarf and a big pink flower for that tasteful touch of glam...
I love Sunday Night Madness
Thinking of you
Tonight I am thinking of you. I have been thinking of you all day. You are part of the reason that I ran to work on my day off. You are the whole reason that I was still there at 7pm tonight. My last couple of days have been endlessly filled with thoughts of you.
I want to be in your life, but I am not prepared to make the sacrifes that you need. The sacrifices that we would need to have a chance. I cannot forget what you did to me. I cannot forget the way that you made me feel. I cannot forget the way that I hated me.
So tonight, I have sat and watched tv without taking it in. I have had 4 beers and am thinking about starting on my fifth. Alcohol does not help, it just makes me meloncoly. I could find heaps of busy things to do to allow me to deny that I am thinking about you.
I am missing you tonight more than usual. I am sick of painting on a smile when I hurt the most. Nobody wants you when you are down. I know that I would have friends around, they care. I don't want to be down any more.
I feel that I am settling for less, but I don't know what is more. I don't know what to do. I don't want to hide the way that I feel any more. I hide it from you by not calling, by not emailing, by not pushing for more. I hide it from friends with a smile, or a distraction. No one wants to hear of a broken heart that happened so long ago. I don't want to think of this broken heart.
I miss you, and you will never know. I miss you, and I don't want you to know. If you called tonight, I would be with you in a heartbeat. I want that, but I know that it is not good.
So on and on I continue, with this circular endless conversation. I want you but I don't want you. I want you to call, but I don't want to talk to you. I want to be with you, but don't want to give up what I have.
I hate when I think of you, of what we had, of what I have lost.
I want to be in your life, but I am not prepared to make the sacrifes that you need. The sacrifices that we would need to have a chance. I cannot forget what you did to me. I cannot forget the way that you made me feel. I cannot forget the way that I hated me.
So tonight, I have sat and watched tv without taking it in. I have had 4 beers and am thinking about starting on my fifth. Alcohol does not help, it just makes me meloncoly. I could find heaps of busy things to do to allow me to deny that I am thinking about you.
I am missing you tonight more than usual. I am sick of painting on a smile when I hurt the most. Nobody wants you when you are down. I know that I would have friends around, they care. I don't want to be down any more.
I feel that I am settling for less, but I don't know what is more. I don't know what to do. I don't want to hide the way that I feel any more. I hide it from you by not calling, by not emailing, by not pushing for more. I hide it from friends with a smile, or a distraction. No one wants to hear of a broken heart that happened so long ago. I don't want to think of this broken heart.
I miss you, and you will never know. I miss you, and I don't want you to know. If you called tonight, I would be with you in a heartbeat. I want that, but I know that it is not good.
So on and on I continue, with this circular endless conversation. I want you but I don't want you. I want you to call, but I don't want to talk to you. I want to be with you, but don't want to give up what I have.
I hate when I think of you, of what we had, of what I have lost.
Something New
Time to look at Google Earth...
I will be back to blogging when I am bored of exploring from the comfort of my house...
Will it live up to what I expect?
I doubt it... ah well..
I will be back to blogging when I am bored of exploring from the comfort of my house...
Will it live up to what I expect?
I doubt it... ah well..
It's nice...
It's nice to have a day where not everything goes wrong.
It's nice to come home to a flat mate who has a smile on his face and a spring in his step.
It's nice to be asked if I would like some dinner.
It's nice to have someone refuse when I offer to lend a hand.
It's nice to find music that I can work to, listening and working at the same time.
It's nice to have a house that is heated against the cold.
It's nice to believe that the challenges that I am facing will soon be over.
It's nice to have dreams and goals to work towards.
It's nice to be tired at the end of a day due to a good days work.
It's nice to have a friend return to work from leave.
It's nice to feel that my future is looking up.
It's nice to have friends who love me, even if I have neglected them.
It's nice to know that these friends will be there.
It's nice to have fine weather.
It's nice to buy a good cup of coffee in the morning.
It's nice to choose what I want, when I want.
It's nice to be told no.
It's nice to say no.
It's nice.
My life, right now is nice.
Can't complain about that!!!
It's nice to come home to a flat mate who has a smile on his face and a spring in his step.
It's nice to be asked if I would like some dinner.
It's nice to have someone refuse when I offer to lend a hand.
It's nice to find music that I can work to, listening and working at the same time.
It's nice to have a house that is heated against the cold.
It's nice to believe that the challenges that I am facing will soon be over.
It's nice to have dreams and goals to work towards.
It's nice to be tired at the end of a day due to a good days work.
It's nice to have a friend return to work from leave.
It's nice to feel that my future is looking up.
It's nice to have friends who love me, even if I have neglected them.
It's nice to know that these friends will be there.
It's nice to have fine weather.
It's nice to buy a good cup of coffee in the morning.
It's nice to choose what I want, when I want.
It's nice to be told no.
It's nice to say no.
It's nice.
My life, right now is nice.
Can't complain about that!!!
Star.
As sung by Sara Storer on her album Firefly
If I could be your star
I would bright and light your world
I'd play a song on my guitar
And you could be my sky
A place where I could shine and hide
And fall into the night
...
If I was way out far
Like a lighthouse in the dark
I'd shine an ever loving light
I'd whisper songs on my guitar
...
If you could be my sunrise
I'd wake to find you by my side
And gently hold you with my eyes
And I'd be your sunset
I'd close down all the bad
And promise the next best day ahead
...
If I was way out far
Like a lighthouse in the dark
I'd shine an ever loving light
I'd whisper songs on my guitar
...
Endless courage
Discovers why
I want to be in your life
...
If I could be your star
I would bright and light your world
I'd play a song on my guitar
And you could be my sky
A place where I could shine and hide
And fall into the night
...
If I was way out far
Like a lighthouse in the dark
I'd shine an ever loving light
I'd whisper songs on my guitar
If I could be your star
I would bright and light your world
I'd play a song on my guitar
And you could be my sky
A place where I could shine and hide
And fall into the night
...
If I was way out far
Like a lighthouse in the dark
I'd shine an ever loving light
I'd whisper songs on my guitar
...
If you could be my sunrise
I'd wake to find you by my side
And gently hold you with my eyes
And I'd be your sunset
I'd close down all the bad
And promise the next best day ahead
...
If I was way out far
Like a lighthouse in the dark
I'd shine an ever loving light
I'd whisper songs on my guitar
...
Endless courage
Discovers why
I want to be in your life
...
If I could be your star
I would bright and light your world
I'd play a song on my guitar
And you could be my sky
A place where I could shine and hide
And fall into the night
...
If I was way out far
Like a lighthouse in the dark
I'd shine an ever loving light
I'd whisper songs on my guitar
Here I am...
Here I am, sitting in my pj's at 4pm, listening to my flat mate making coffee in the kitchen. I have my slippers on, the heater going and the window open. My mind is full of the songs that play in my headphones from my playlist of 6 or 7 songs that talk to me and must be repeated over and over again.
I sit here and know that I should be working on the things that I brought home to do. However, I am finding it hard to focus and do what needs to be done. I have done little bits and pieces all day. Some things have been crossed off my to do list, others are still there. I have a deadline... This week is kind of it. From Monday next week, I'm delivering the training that I have been working on for the last 18 months. I am far from done, but know that I will be working endless hours for the next week and all of next weekend. This known, I have been doing odd things around the house today. I was meant to go in to work, but decided that I did not want to. And now today is a little bit of a come down. Today is the anitclimax of yesterday.
Yesterday was filled with little adventures that were so much fun. Now I need to get on and do some work. So right now, I am going to stop playing on the Internet. I'm going to get myself another up of coffee, and get back to my document.
I do this knowing that I will give myself a break at 6 and at 8:30...
I am going to love this week.... I MUST GET IT ALL DONE...
Once all of this is over, I am going to spend some time on me!!!
I sit here and know that I should be working on the things that I brought home to do. However, I am finding it hard to focus and do what needs to be done. I have done little bits and pieces all day. Some things have been crossed off my to do list, others are still there. I have a deadline... This week is kind of it. From Monday next week, I'm delivering the training that I have been working on for the last 18 months. I am far from done, but know that I will be working endless hours for the next week and all of next weekend. This known, I have been doing odd things around the house today. I was meant to go in to work, but decided that I did not want to. And now today is a little bit of a come down. Today is the anitclimax of yesterday.
Yesterday was filled with little adventures that were so much fun. Now I need to get on and do some work. So right now, I am going to stop playing on the Internet. I'm going to get myself another up of coffee, and get back to my document.
I do this knowing that I will give myself a break at 6 and at 8:30...
I am going to love this week.... I MUST GET IT ALL DONE...
Once all of this is over, I am going to spend some time on me!!!
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