I have found that now I am of a certain age, that I am more... more something... I want to say tolerant, but know that my lack of tolerance sometimes frustrates me. Maybe it is that I am more distant. I have separated myself more from people and situations. I am one step back, which means that it takes longer for me to burn hot with fury, to laugh out loud at an amusing moment.
I feel that I can recognise the patterns in life. I feel that I have identified most of the tempations. I know the way the people use people, as I find myself often using people.
There is no glamour in the menial corruptions that happen each day. The fun of conspiracy has decreased. I am more likely to tell someone that I have hiden their prized item and moments later am returning that item. Years ago I could take and hide an item for weeks and get immense pleasure from the deception and deceipt.
I'm no so old that I don't want to waste the energy. I am happy to watch those younger doing their bit. I am happy to advise them on the evil that they can create. I just don't bother any more.