I have been emailing far off friends tonight. It's something that I am not good at. I am not good at calling. I am not good at texting.
Why, when I am a person of so many words, can I not put those words down to share with some of the people that I love most.
I have been trying to write the ways that I am a good friend. I can't find any ways that I am. I know that I don't tell people how much they mean to me I don't write letter, I don't send cards, I don't call and I don't text. I wait until the last minute to make contact when I am in town.
I am a good friend through my actions. I will go well out of my way for a friend.
I don't need to see my friends every day. In fact, it's better if I don't because I can be high maintenance and attention demanding. I grate on peoples nerves. I understand all of these things and make a point not to push myself onto others.
I love my friends dearly, and while I may not demonstrate this all the time, they know that I am there for them. They know that I love them and support all that they do. They know that when they need me I am there. I will walk for hours on a beach in the middle of the night so that they can clear their head. I have broad shoulders for them to cry on.
I love my far off friends because they love me even when I don't contact them. I love my far off friends because they continue to love me, just as I love them. I just hope that I bring to their lives a small part of the joy that they bring to mine.
I hope that I learn to become a better friend.