Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more. ~erica jong
Perhaps Erica is correct. Perhaps it worries me if she is correct. Actually, it does worry me.
If love came looking for me, I think that I would turn and run away. I don't even think that I would look back.
Perhaps Erica's words are true in the same way that the following thoughts are true. Sometimes wanting something so much means that it is never really yours. If you manage to hold onto something that you crave and have craved for many years, you are scared that you are imagining it all. You are scared that it is just a dream and that when you wake it is all going to fall through your fingers like sand. This makes you hold on so tightly that you end up breaking it into peice. The strength of you desire and the size of all your fears is too much.
How do you balance it. How do you have the strength to let go of the fear that sufficates you? How do you balance holding on and setting it free? How do you find the courage to risk all to get all?