You called me to see if we could be together again. This time I said no. If you had come to me before I told everyone that we had broken up, then maybe, just maybe. It tears my heart out to think about it, but I can't do it to myself. Everyone says that you are not good for me.
Friendship to Nothing.
Nothing to Love.
Love to Nothing.
Nothing to Love.
Love to Nothing.
Three times you have changed your mind. Twice I have taken you back. I can't take you back this time. I can't do it because I don't trust that it would last.
Now it is to be Nothing forever.
Okay, so I understand that you have changed your mind. Perhaps you now realise that I was a good thing for you. It all does not matter. Life goes on, my life is without you and your life is without me. It has to be because there is no other option.
There is to be no more contact. You are not to try to see me. You are not to call, not to email and not to text.
You cried when I said "Goodbye". I'm sorry for that. I am sorry for telling you that you can call me on the anniversary of the date we meet. I will not answer the phone. I will not respond.
It has to be over. And I will not be waiting. Tomorrow, you will not be welcome. Next week, you will not be welcome. Next year, you will not be welcome. Next decade, you will not be welcome.
Yes, I do love you. I probably will for all time. But my life is not with yours. I hope to find someone who can love me for who I am, for all I am and for all that I can be.
I hope that you find someone who loves you and I hope that that same someone you will love.
I hope that you understand why I had to say no. There was no choice. I can't go back again. I don't have the strength to survive.