I want tonight to be all about me. It's my birthday drinks. I never make a big deal about having a party or having drinks. Tonight I celebrate my 30th birthday with friends and want it to be all about me. This is the first time ever that I am having a party. Usually I'm lucky if I can organise a cake.
The girls at work spoilt me today. I had icecream cake and honey joys and everyone sang. Tonight I wanted to go out and drink with my friends.
My best friend is driving tonight. He won't be drinking with me. It's be ages since we went out and had a big night together. Usually I drive, but tonight when I am prepared to take public transport so that I can drink, he does not want to.
No I understand his feelings, and I know that he wants to show his lover a good time. I am happy to share my birthday. I've shared it with my twin forever, and I am happy to share it with others. For once, just once I don't want to share the good time. I want it to be all about me. I feel bad for wanting this. I think it's time for another drink. Worst case, I'll just drown my sorrows by myself. I'm prepared to pay for it in the morning.
Happy Birthday to me...