I regret that I did not love you as you wished to be loved.
I regret all the things that I planned and never got to share.
I regret kissing you one moore time.
I regret not holding on tighter.
I regret not giving you the support that you needed.
I regret not challenging you to be more.
I regret that I had a negative effect on your life.
I regret the dreams that had started to form.
I regret not jumping in with both feet.
I regret that I have all of these regrets and more that I cannot find words to express.
Thank-you for all the things that you showed me, all the things that you taught me.
You broadened my world and expanded my horizons.
You helped turn me into a woman who appears to be confident and proud.
You showed me that I am worth more than I think I am.
You believed in more when I did not.
You supported me when I was fragile and you let me fight when I believed that I had no other choice.
Thank-you for sharing your family with me. They accepted me for who I was.
Thank-you for reconfirming how lucky I am to have friends who will support me even when they doubt the decisions that I have made.
Thank-you for loving me.
Thank-you for making me believe that I was beautiful and desirable.
Thank-you for all the little things that I will never be able to recount.
Thank- you for showing me the beauty that you saw in the world. For an instant I saw me reflected in your eyes and then I understood.
In the words of another - Thanks for the memories...
Airport Travel
Why does it seem that when you are on your way to somewhere, there are delays and the like? Travelling by plane is fast and easy. The waiting in airports is more difficult than it should be. An hour here and an hour there, it all mounts up. However it is an excellent opportunity to people watch.
I love to people watch. Sit at a computer and typing is not the most subtle way to people watch. The best way is to slip in some head phones, slip on a pair of sunglasses and watch the world go past. Listen in on the interaction of other people.
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Strangers who get into interesting and weird conversations. Conversations that rarely take place between people who know each other. It's interesting to watch the approach. A stranger sitting at a table, eating a lunch. He is looking at the world around, making eye contact. She sits down and talks about her busy morning and the boyfriend she is flying to meet.
At this time of year, conversation turns to Valentines Day... Monday - not all that far away. She's a pretty young thing who exclaims that she has never had a boyfriend who has bought celebrated Valentine's day with her. Do you believe it? He picks at his lunch, while she is on the phone to her boyfriend. Delayed flights and chance meetings, make for interesting observation.
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The family man with his kids at in tow. An uncomfortable looking situation. The little girl is not too happy and falls to the floor screaming. He find the bright carousel with the children's books and finds three that will keep her interested. Fishing in his pocket for his wallet while he struggles with the girl under his arm, the young boy at his side and the books that you can see he is praying will keep their attention while they wait for the plane to leave or arrive.
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The young men, looking to waste the hours of delay by drinking overpriced beer in a waiting lounge while watching each other behave in more annoying ways as the day meanders along.
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While I don't love waiting in airports, I do love watching people. It's an interesting and amusing way to while away the hours until I get to board the plane and wing it home.
I love to people watch. Sit at a computer and typing is not the most subtle way to people watch. The best way is to slip in some head phones, slip on a pair of sunglasses and watch the world go past. Listen in on the interaction of other people.
---
Strangers who get into interesting and weird conversations. Conversations that rarely take place between people who know each other. It's interesting to watch the approach. A stranger sitting at a table, eating a lunch. He is looking at the world around, making eye contact. She sits down and talks about her busy morning and the boyfriend she is flying to meet.
At this time of year, conversation turns to Valentines Day... Monday - not all that far away. She's a pretty young thing who exclaims that she has never had a boyfriend who has bought celebrated Valentine's day with her. Do you believe it? He picks at his lunch, while she is on the phone to her boyfriend. Delayed flights and chance meetings, make for interesting observation.
---
The family man with his kids at in tow. An uncomfortable looking situation. The little girl is not too happy and falls to the floor screaming. He find the bright carousel with the children's books and finds three that will keep her interested. Fishing in his pocket for his wallet while he struggles with the girl under his arm, the young boy at his side and the books that you can see he is praying will keep their attention while they wait for the plane to leave or arrive.
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The young men, looking to waste the hours of delay by drinking overpriced beer in a waiting lounge while watching each other behave in more annoying ways as the day meanders along.
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While I don't love waiting in airports, I do love watching people. It's an interesting and amusing way to while away the hours until I get to board the plane and wing it home.
Long time no post!
It's been a long time since I've blogged. I've been thinking about this and that. I've been meaning to post for a long while, but the thought does not equate to a reality of blogging.
People from my past have been popping back into my life and then running back to where they have come from.
While I understand that some friendships come and go... I miss the people of my past.
I miss the friend who I shared so much, who walked away without a goodbye.
I miss my ex, who popped back to check that my family was okay after recent natural disaster.
What am I meant to be doing to move on with my life. Is there any such thing?
People from my past have been popping back into my life and then running back to where they have come from.
While I understand that some friendships come and go... I miss the people of my past.
I miss the friend who I shared so much, who walked away without a goodbye.
I miss my ex, who popped back to check that my family was okay after recent natural disaster.
What am I meant to be doing to move on with my life. Is there any such thing?
To Do List
Is it time for me to put me at the top of my to do list?
I can say that it is. It may take a couple of weeks for me to get to this point. But it is time for me to come first. It is time for me to put myself first.
This may mean many things over the coming weeks and months. This may mean many things for the rest of my life.
This may include time for fun, time of exercise, time to create, time to relax, time to reflect.
I can say that it is. It may take a couple of weeks for me to get to this point. But it is time for me to come first. It is time for me to put myself first.
This may mean many things over the coming weeks and months. This may mean many things for the rest of my life.
This may include time for fun, time of exercise, time to create, time to relax, time to reflect.
Drumming Class
I went to drumming class tonight and I love it. Who would have thought that beating a drum with the palm of my hands would work up a sweat?
It's fun. It's fun. It's fun.
I can't believe that I have to miss a week because I am going away. I am okay with this. But I think that I need to keep going and I think that I need to get a drum.
It's fun. It's fun. It's fun.
I can't believe that I have to miss a week because I am going away. I am okay with this. But I think that I need to keep going and I think that I need to get a drum.
A year of hiding
It has been over a year since I have blogged. There is no excuse. I may have been working way to many hours, I may have been spending too long sitting on the couch and watching the TV, I may just have been hiding.
My life has not moved forward. I feel that I have been going through the motions, not changing, not growing.
I have cut off my hair and I need to make some serious decisions about what I am going to do and what I am going to do and what I am going to do. Will what I am going to do change who I am going to be?
I will no longer be waiting to see what is going to happen. I will make it happen. I am not going to wait. No longer. No longer. No longer.
A year of hiding is over. It starts with small steps - cutting my hair off is a start, drumming class on
Monday. Let's see what will become.
My life has not moved forward. I feel that I have been going through the motions, not changing, not growing.
I have cut off my hair and I need to make some serious decisions about what I am going to do and what I am going to do and what I am going to do. Will what I am going to do change who I am going to be?
I will no longer be waiting to see what is going to happen. I will make it happen. I am not going to wait. No longer. No longer. No longer.
A year of hiding is over. It starts with small steps - cutting my hair off is a start, drumming class on
Monday. Let's see what will become.
End of life
To become what we are capable of becoming is the only end of life. - Robert Louis Stevenson
Good Hearts
A good heart... is the sun... for it shines bright... and never changes... - William Shakespeare
Unbreakable
To achieve great things we must live as though we were never going to die. - Marquis de Vauvenargues
Beliitled ambitions
Keep away from people who try to beliitle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great. - Mark Twain
The beauty within
Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us, or we find it not. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
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